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i wrote this//can't take it back

if ever you are angry, if ever you are sad,
 if ever you are anxious, if ever you are lonely,
 if ever you are happy, if ever you are worried,
if ever you are scared, if ever you are regretful:
if ever there is anything you doubt,

do not doubt my love for you.

if I paint all the walls black. If I torment the sea.
 if I come at you with buckets of ice. If I pull your flat apart with each brick.
 if I drain your body of every ounce of energy.
then please, leave me.

but do not doubt my love for you.

you can give my gifts to my enemies. 
you can print my secrets into the newspapers.
you can contaminate my words with poison.
you can drown my hopes in the tears you have shed at my hand.
 you can pluck my dreams from my heart and admire the ashes in the wind.
but whatever you do,

 do not doubt my love for you.

with every month, with every week, with every day,
with every hour, with every minute, with every second
 and with every fibre, atom, ion, molecule and particle-
 with every ounce, inch, centimetre and mile.

 i will love you.

with every breath you take, 

do not doubt my love.
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